England skipper Kevin Pietersen, whose team is expected to decide whether or not to return to India by Monday, has admitted he hasn't slept since the Mumbai terror attacks. Pietersen's men are due to play India in a two-Test series in December, but those matches are in doubt in the wake of the attacks in India's financial capital which left 195 people dead. The 28-year-old Pietersen said he is still shaking after learning of the attacks and when he discovered English tourists were being targeted it sent a shiver down his spine. Writing in Sunday's News of the World, Pietersen said: “I'm still shaking from the terrorist atrocities in Mumbai. “Every time I see the TV footage of the carnage in the Indian city, I realize how close we were to death. I haven't slept thinking about the three-day rampage and siege. We were 800 miles from the attack, but suddenly we felt very vulnerable, especially as we had stayed at the targeted Taj Mahal Hotel just two weeks ago.” Pietersen said he feared the England team - and their captain - would be a target. “It makes my blood run cold,” he added. But the England skipper said if the go-ahead was given by security experts to return for the Test series, he would return. The second Test has already been moved from Mumbai to Chennai in a bid to calm fears. The first Test is scheduled to start on Dec. 11 in Ahmedabad. Harmison undecided England is making contingency plans for its Test series in India after Steve Harmison said Sunday that returning to the subcontinent in the wake of the terror attacks in Mumbai would be the most important decision of his life. “The carnage is unimaginable, like a horror movie,” the fast bowler told the Mail on Sunday. “I'm sorry but whatever is being asked of us in the next few days, at the moment, the idea of being asked to go back out there is the last thing on my mind.” Harmison responded to suggestions in the British media that England had a moral obligation to go back to India for the two-Test series, which is scheduled to start on Dec. 11 in Ahmedabad. “This is beyond cricket, this is beyond anything,” he said. “It's all very well for people back home to say we should carry on with the tour, but none of what has happened has anything to do with cricket. How anyone can say that we should be carrying on with the tour in the circumstances is beyond me. I can't say now that I will definitely not come back or that I definitely will.” Harmison warned that even if the England and Wales Cricket Board guarantee the team's security, he and his teammates will not automatically agree to play. ECB managing director Hugh Morris said Saturday that England was committed to the India tour, provided it was “safe and secure” to return. A decision will be made by Monday after consultations with the ECB's security staff, the British Foreign Office and the UK High Commissioner in Delhi. Morris said the ECB was preparing for players to pull out. Lalit Modi, vice president of the Board of Control for Cricket in India, still expects England to tour, citing Australia's decision to complete the 2005 Ashes series in the aftermath of the July 7 bombings in London.
